It's been a short Monday around here, the time has just flew on by. It seems like I no sooner got my day started and then it was already night time. How does that happen? The older I get the more I realize that the song "Don't Blink" is so true. It seems days disappear in just a blink of an eye.
Anika went back to school today. She was out 2 days last week from being sick and then she was out over the weekend so she didn't wake in a very good mood this morning. I think she takes "NOT" being a morning person after me. I don't do mornings well at all. I really should have stayed up this morning after she left but I was just exhausted. Little Man and Annalee both were up and down all night last night so I didn't get much sleep. I hate laying back down though because I do what I did this morning, I sleep till almost noon. I think it was 11:30 something when I finally woke this morning. That is just ridiculous.
I was in a VERY bad mood this morning. I'm not sure what my problem was. I think it was a mix of frustration over the whole Church thing, PMS and a Dream I had. That sentence just made me sound crazy didn't it? Really though, I think I just had a lot on my mind this morning. I'm the world's worst to over think things to the point that it exhausts me and that is exactly what I've been doing the past few days. Hubby didn't have much to say to me this morning. He's a smart man and knew that the less he said the better off he probably was. I had him watch the kids for me while I ran to town to pick up a few things and pay the water bill. When I got back home I fixed him some lunch and then sent him off to work. I'm fairly certain this was one day that he was more than happy to go.
I had a ton and I mean a ton of things I needed to be doing after Hubby left for work but my mood just wouldn't allow me to do it. I was so nervous feeling and could honestly feel rage within myself. I hate when I get like that and I have lots of trouble controlling it. My doctor assured me that it was normal considering what I've been through this past year and he prescribed me Ativan to help with the emotions. I decided today was one of those days I needed to take it. Honestly, I haven't taken one in a month or so now & that is a good thing. I think these episodes are getting less & less. I talked on the phone with my SIL for a bit which always makes me feel better and then I pretty much sat around the next hour doing nothing. By the time Anika got home at 3:30, my medicine had started working and I was much calmer.
Anika got her classes changed today. I had them change her due to the episode that happened a month or so back. Apparently she isn't happy with these new classes. I pray that they get better for her as time goes on. She had cheer practice today at 4:30 so after her and I talked for a few, she got her clothes changed and ready for practice. We got the two little ones dressed and headed out the door. I made a straight trip up there, dropped her off and then headed back home.
I had planned to NOT go to Church tonight. I was so emotional after last night's service that I decided maybe I needed to step away from Church for awhile. It's such a HARD thing for me and being an over thinker, I can drive myself quite crazy with it very quickly. My SIL called though and she had no one to go with her so I agreed to go. I couldn't hardly tell her no seeing as how she goes with me EVERYTIME I ask. I called Mom to see if Her and Dad were going and they were. She offered to just stay home and keep the Little One's but I didn't want her to miss the service so I told her no. I sucked it up and decided to just take them with me. This is the first time ever I've taken them to Church. I jumped in the shower, got myself and the kiddos ready, packed diaper bags, made arrangements for Anika to be picked up from practice & dropped off at my Granny's and then we headed out. We met my SIL at KFC at 6:20 and got up to the Church around 6:30.
I don't mean to blog so much about my Church going and I hope it doesn't offend anyone but right now it's a real big deal in my life.
Church was packed as usual. I'm sure there was 100 people or more there. That is amazing considering this is a super tiny Church. The sermon was wonderful but it always is. Michael preached tonight and I love to hear him. He's very straight forward. My Children were very well behaved and that made me happy. Tonight I made a step that I've not been able to make up until this point. When the Pastor asked for all "lost" people to raise their hands, I actually raised mine. I know it doesn't sound like much but it has been very difficult for me. I was extremely proud of myself. God has definitely been working with me and dealing with my heart. I've been under conviction for sometime now but I've been under MAJOR conviction for the past 3 weeks. I know what your thinking, just do it. Friends, it just isn't that easy for me. I won't go into all the details here on my blog but I will ask that if you pray, please pray for me.
Service was over around 8:30 tonight so we went and picked up Anika, dropped my SIL off at her car and then ran to the store. I got some stuff to make us spaghetti tonight because I was starving. Yes, I cooked spaghetti well after 10:00 tonight and I ate a boat load of it. Good thing losing weight isn't one of my 2013 goals. I also made us a pan of Caramel Brownies which was delicious. Anika and I straightened up the house this evening and I even got my living room and kitchen mopped. Things around here are far from clean but they are livable and that is good enough for me right now.
I snapped a few pics today that I wanted to share with you so here they are:
Since I rarely dress up I made Anika take a pic
of me after Church. Don't mind my messy floor
Anika's ring came today. We sent it off to be cleaned and sized.
This is the ring my Grandmother left to her upon her death. It
is quite a special piece of jewelry!
A friend of mine dropped off some things she had been given.
She thought Annalee might like them. These Dora PJ's were in the box!
This cute little outfit was in it too
Can't forget this adorable Velour outfit either
I'll be spending the rest of my night tonight finishing up my 100 Things List that I'll be posting for you very soon. I'm almost done with it. I also plan on doing another load or two of laundry while I'm waiting on the Hubby to get home & I'm going to look at some Valentines Day projects!!!
I posted this on my last post and I'm going to continue posting it in hopes that I can get 5 of you to join in. I think it's a great idea!!! Come on people, join in!
2013 Creative Pay-It-Forward: The first five people to comment on this post will receive from me, sometime in the next calendar year, a gift - perhaps a book, or baked goods, or a candle, music - a surprise! There will likely be no warning and it will happen whenever the mood strikes me. The catch? Those five people must make the same offer in their blog...... ( If you're not going to pay it forward -- PLEASE do not comment)
(and be sure to inbox me your address if you're in the top 5)
(and be sure to inbox me your address if you're in the top 5)
Tomorrow is an at home day for me except for going to visit my Granny tomorrow evening. We owe her a visit!
Hope all is well in your world. I'll be back tomorrow with another update
Nighty Night Dear Friends,